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The Pain in Serendipity – End

The Pain in Serendipity – A Captain America Fanfic

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Character Pairing:  Steve Rogers x F!Reader, Bucky Barnes x Steve Rogers

Rating: E

Word Count: 1829

Warnings: none

Synopsis:   When Thanos snaps his fingers it takes your daughter and Steve Rogers’ first love with it.  Together you pick up the pieces, falling in love and building a family together.  Finding serendipity in your shared trauma.  When opportunity comes to bring back those who are lost comes with the risk of more loss for you both.  Is it worth taking the risk?


Chapter 31

The sound of joyful screams and laughter blended with the carnival music, wafting around the beachside amusement park along with the smells of fried foods and cotton candy.  It was the day of the festival that was being held for all the families of children who had been left behind before the blip.  It was an event that you had worked hard to organize in the hopes that the newly blended families could see they weren’t alone.  You wanted them to see that the world was different now and that different could be good.  You wanted to celebrate these new families and how they had adapted to the world.

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The Pain in Serendipity – 30

The Pain in Serendipity – A Captain America Fanfic

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Character Pairing:  Steve Rogers x F!Reader, Bucky Barnes x Steve Rogers

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Word Count: 2817

Warnings: smut (MMF bisexual threesome, oral sex, double vaginal penetration)

Synopsis:   When Thanos snaps his fingers it takes your daughter and Steve Rogers’ first love with it.  Together you pick up the pieces, falling in love and building a family together.  Finding serendipity in your shared trauma.  When opportunity comes to bring back those who are lost comes with the risk of more loss for you both.  Is it worth taking the risk?


Chapter 30

The date night with Steve and Bucky and been perfect.  The fear that they’d take everything the wrong way had been completely unjustified.  They’d loved the nostalgia attached to each part and in a way, it gave them something that they had been missing.  It was easy enough for you to share your past with them.  You could take them to see the house you grew up in.  You had photos of your time in school and with your family.  There were ways you could share the nostalgia of your childhood with them that were easy and they could find joy in.  The same wasn’t true for either Bucky or Steve.  Sure some of the buildings were still around but the city had changed so much.  It was a rare moment that they could share something with you that was from their childhood.  That was especially so for Bucky whose memories of the time were hazy and muddled.  The date for him had been like he’d rediscovered a part of his past.

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The Pain in Serendipity – 29

The Pain in Serendipity – A Captain America Fanfic

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Synopsis:   When Thanos snaps his fingers it takes your daughter and Steve Rogers’ first love with it.  Together you pick up the pieces, falling in love and building a family together.  Finding serendipity in your shared trauma.  When opportunity comes to bring back those who are lost comes with the risk of more loss for you both.  Is it worth taking the risk?


Chapter 29

“Bucky!  Have you got any cash for school lunches?” Steve called down the stairs as he tried to wrangle both Alice, Jacob, and Isabella down with their backpacks.  There was a familiar energy to the house that made it feel more like home than it had in months.  The same kind of noisy chaos from back before the blip, when you and Steve carried grief with you together, supporting each other in a way that had created a happy loving home.  That was how things had been lately.  Yes, it was different.  Jacob lived with Callie in the flat out the back, and Isabella only really came to stay one weekend out of three.  Yet, it was becoming normal again.  Not just normal.  Good.

It was Monday – the worst day for getting them all to school, and today was extra chaotic because Isabella had spent the weekend with you and Callie had been out late on a date.  You appreciated the time with just Steve, Bucky, and the kids, and even more, you appreciated the chaotic struggle to get them all out the door on time.

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The Pain in Serendipity – 28

The Pain in Serendipity – A Captain America Fanfic

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Word Count: 2136

Warnings: angst

Synopsis:   When Thanos snaps his fingers it takes your daughter and Steve Rogers’ first love with it.  Together you pick up the pieces, falling in love and building a family together.  Finding serendipity in your shared trauma.  When opportunity comes to bring back those who are lost comes with the risk of more loss for you both.  Is it worth taking the risk?


Chapter 28

Resilient.  It was probably the word that best described you.  Change hurt and sometimes it felt like you were broken and there was no way you would ever really be happy again.  Then slowly those happy moments returned and became more common until they outweighed the grief and the sadness and stress you were carrying, and you could once again say you had a happy life.  That life – and the happiness that surrounded it might be completely different to the one that came before, but it was happiness.  You might break, but you were always able to pull yourself back together and find something new.

This new life was strange in so many ways.  Your closest friend lived in a two-bedroom annex you’d built in your backyard with Jacob, a boy you both considered a son.  You lived in the house with your husband and his boyfriend – a man you were quickly starting to think of as your boyfriend too, and your daughter Alice.  Your oldest son Ryan was away at college, and your other daughter Isabella was gone, taken by her biological parents.  It was a strange family setup where their links of biology were rare with only you and Alice, and Callie and Jacob sharing them, and where there seemed to be far too many parents than you’d normally find.  Yet, while you still missed Bella and grieved for her every day, you had found happiness again.

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The Pain in Serendipity – 27

The Pain in Serendipity – A Captain America Fanfic

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Word Count: 2381

Warnings: smut (MMF bisexual threesome, accidental voyeurism, oral sex, vaginal sex, anal sex)

Synopsis:   When Thanos snaps his fingers it takes your daughter and Steve Rogers’ first love with it.  Together you pick up the pieces, falling in love and building a family together.  Finding serendipity in your shared trauma.  When opportunity comes to bring back those who are lost comes with the risk of more loss for you both.  Is it worth taking the risk?


Chapter 27

A month after coming to Steve with your proposal that he could be with both you and Bucky, the house had begun to settle into a new kind of normalcy.  Work was slowing down now that there was a legal ruling regarding custody, and you were mostly working on running support groups for both parents who had now lost their adoptive children and the ones having to come to terms with missing five years of their children’s lives.  Sometimes you still needed to play mediator, but it was only to help families who wanted to work together to give a child the best possible outcome.  You were less stressed, and you weren’t needed as much.

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The Pain in Serendipity – 26

The Pain in Serendipity – A Captain America Fanfic

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Character Pairing:  Steve Rogers x F!Reader, Bucky Barnes x Steve Rogers (possible polyamory in future).

Rating: E

Word Count: 1917

Warnings: sex talk

Synopsis:   When Thanos snaps his fingers it takes your daughter and Steve Rogers’ first love with it.  Together you pick up the pieces, falling in love and building a family together.  Finding serendipity in your shared trauma.  When opportunity comes to bring back those who are lost comes with the risk of more loss for you both.  Is it worth taking the risk?


Chapter 26

The house you had bought on your own with your own money over four years ago was a large family home in Brooklyn.  It wasn’t fancy, nor was it in a particularly good neighborhood.  As much as you would have loved to buy a five-story brownstone on the upper east side of Manhattan, even with Steve’s years of back pay from the army, you couldn’t have afforded that.  Still, your home was three stories and had four bedrooms – enough so that each of your kids could have their own room.  It had three bathrooms and the kitchen was roomy with a floating island.  It had a backyard and even though it was oddly shaped and you had to go up a flight of stairs to access half of it, it was big enough for a trampoline and a basketball hoop.  It was a good home for a family, and even though you and Steve had planned a lot of upgrades that you’d never gotten to, it was comfortable, big enough for all of you, and it was yours.

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The Pain in Serendipity – 2

The Pain in Serendipity – A Captain America Fanfic

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Rating: E

Word Count:  2174

Warnings:  Mentions ofChild and Infant death, angst, grief, trauma, aftermath of the snap.

Synopsis:   When Thanos snaps his fingers it takes your daughter and Steve Rogers’ first love with it.  Together you pick up the pieces, falling in love and building a family together.  Finding serendipity in your shared trauma.When opportunity comes to bring back those who are lost comes with the risk of more loss for you both.  Is it worth taking the risk?


Chapter 2

Over the next couple of weeks, you moved everyone from the gym to the old Avengers tower in New York and a process was put in place to hire people both full and part-time to work for the new organization that Stark Industries had founded.  It was part of a network that was starting throughout the US and hoped to expand throughout the world that would deal with displaced children after half of life was erased.

The organization would work in three different ways.  First, it would find and take care of displaced children, acting as a halfway house for the kids affected by the incident.  There would be volunteers and paid employees whose job was to search homes and parks and go to schools to find kids that were essentially orphaned.

All children that ended up at the tower whether it be because they were found, brought in by concerned neighbors, or made their own way there, were processed and given a place to live, and people to care for them.  The foundation employed admin staff, carers, cleaners, cooks, security, and other miscellaneous staff to help run the facility.

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The Pain in Serendipity – 1

The Pain in Serendipity – A Captain America Fanfic

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Rating: E

Word Count:  2689

Warnings:  Child and Infant death, canon typical action, angst, grief, trauma, aftermath of the snap. (smut warning on series 18+ only)

Synopsis:   When Thanos snaps his fingers it takes your daughter and Steve Rogers’ first love with it.  Together you pick up the pieces, falling in love and building a family together.  Finding serendipity in your shared trauma.When opportunity comes to bring back those who are lost comes with the risk of more loss for you both.  Is it worth taking the risk?


Chapter 1

The worst day of your life started out pleasant enough.  Good even.  Your four-year-old daughter Alice had let you sleep in for a change and you’d woken up feeling rested.  You had gotten a decent amount of work done while Alice had eaten her cereal and spent the morning building things with her Lego bricks and you’d decided that as a treat to you both, you’d take her to the park and get lunch while you were out.

Nobody ever expects the world to fall apart though and you’d already had that happen to you once.  When the police showed up at your home to tell you your husband had been killed in an accident you thought your whole world had ended.  The love of your life was gone and you were alone in the world with your infant daughter.

One life-shattering change was enough – or so you had thought as you’d picked up the pieces of your broken world and built a new one out of the wreckage.

The world is random and unforgiving and doesn’t care how much anyone has been through and as you brushed your daughter’s hair, carefully working out the tangles so you can put it in pigtails, the world took from you again.

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Running to a Standstill – Eleven

Running to a Standstill: A Captain America Fanfic

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Character Pairing:  Bucky Barnes x Steve Rogers x F!Reader

Word Count:  2384

Rating:  E

Warnings: Smut( bisexual MMF, oral sex, intercrural sex, vaginal sex)

Synopsis: While on the run from an unknown organization trying to take your son, you meet two super-soldiers.  While they try to help you get to the bottom of who is hunting you and your son, feelings come out and admissions are made that make your personal life even more tricky.


Chapter 11

Steve was thankful for the paperwork and debrief he had to do before the date he had asked both you and Bucky on.  He liked romance but he wasn’t good at it and this whole ‘dating two people at the same time’ thing was so far out of his wheelhouse it has its own wheelhouse.  Work, however, he might hate but he was good at it.  It gave him time to unpack things and calm down and so by the time he was headed back downstairs the anxiety he had about fucking this all up completely was at a manageable level.

When he went inside he was not at all prepared for what greeted him.  He had expected to be taking you both out – that you’d be dressed and just waiting for him to be done with work.  Instead, the apartment had been cleaned and the lights were dimmed.  Candles had been placed around the room and added a woody aroma to the smell of cooking wafting from the kitchen where you and Bucky were cooking together.  You’d both dressed up too.  You were wearing a layered, burgundy, lace dress with dark beaded jewelry.  While Bucky had black jeans paired with a black button-up that was open at the neck and the sleeves were rolled up.  He’d also tied his hair back and shaved off his beard.  The way he smiled as you passed him a jar of spices reminded Steve so much of the guy he’d been before the war.  The carefree Bucky who was always there to have his back or drag him out on some double date.

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Viraha

Bucky Barnes/Steve Rogers
Synopsis:
  Steve Rogers didn’t know what he had until he kept losing it, again and again.
Prompt:  Stucky + Viraha


VIRAHA{Hindi}

(n.) the realization of love through separation

There was a time that Bucky was always just there.  Steve knew that when he went downstairs to walk to school, Bucky would be leaning against the stoop, waiting for him to come down.  While they weren’t in the same class, he knew that when he got into the inevitable fistfight during lunch, Bucky would be there, stepping in.  Even when he didn’t want him to.  Even when it made him feel even smaller to have him do that.

He was there on weekends, messing around together even as he hit on girls.  He was there when they both dropped out of school to get jobs.  He was there when his mom died.  Bucky was a constant in his life.  Where there was that scrawny Stevie kid, there was Bucky.  They were two peas in a pod.

Steve loved Bucky.  Of course, he did.  But it was a love that was unspoken and taken for granted.  He was a constant and that familiarity made it hard to realize how special it was.

It wasn’t until he left for war, that Steve realized there was more there.  When he woke up in the morning and he wasn’t greeted to the sound of Bucky breathing in the bed beside him.  He realized he missed his familiar, reassuring presence.  Even the army training and experiment and USO tour didn’t dull that ache in his heart.

Steve loved him.  He loved him with every part of him.  It burned in him.  He didn’t know why he couldn’t figure that out while he had him there with him.  It took him losing him again and again how much Steve needed Bucky.  How without him it was like a piece of him was missing.  The piece that made him Steve.

He wished he’d realized sooner.

More than that, he wished he’d stop losing him.